Family Fusion

I have never been so tired in my life. As I write this, I am thankful for a slow day at work. I spent sat-wed working very hard with little break. Let me stop here and say I AM NOT COMPLAINING! I had an incredible week serving God, and serving his people so they could learn more about Him. This is my life's calling. I believe, being called into the ministry, I am called to equip God's people. I got a small dose of that this week. I would quit my job tomorrow for the opportunity to do this for life. I have struggled with getting back into the ministry. I want to so bad. The problem is many churches ask me about my college degree. I didn't exactly finish it. I have nothing against school, it's just, after a time, I felt like God was did not want me there. A lot of church people put God in a box on this. How much will it help me to finish a business degree. I have even felt pressure from church people to go back - It seems as we often times think everyone has the same plan laid out for them. If you are going into the ministry you must go to college then seminary then you get a job. It took me a long time to understand that this is not true. God has been working in me and preparing me in many different ways. He recently showed me that I have a unique perspective that a lot of ministers do not have. I know what it is like to not work in a church. I also know what it is like to work a full time job, maintain my family and still be heavily involved at church. I understand these things because I have lived them. All that to say this! I loved getting a taste of what God has for me soon. I can't wait to have nothing to do but equip the saints. I trust that God will ut me in ministry when the time is His. And the lack of a degree won't matter, because he will prepare the way. Watch Him work!!! I have been doing that all week and it is truly wonderful.

I'm Back

It's been a while since my last post. Sorry about that - not that anybody really reads this - It just feels good to talk some things out. God has been blowing my mind lately. Lately I have constantly been aware of God. And when I do have moments that I didn't think of him, I hurt and feel empty. I have missed this feeling. I went through a period of time when I didn't feel anything where God is concerned. I could go a whole week and talk about him on Sunday and feel fine. How fake is that? I am so glad to be back to where I think on God very often. With intimate relationship comes this incredible awareness of death. This overwhelming feeling that has been with me since I was a kid. I used to always try to stop thinking about it, but lately, I have embraced it. You see as humans we have a hard time with the concept of forever. Our minds don't go that far. Awareness of death is what helps us realize there is so much more than this short life. We don't like to think about it, but it is coming. You can not change it. What are you doing to impact lives with this short one you have? Where have you put emphasis? Is your job, house, status, hobby, church the most important thing in your life? It shouldn't be. As Christians we should not do one thing without thinking about the impact on eternity. You only get one shot in life. It would suck to get to heaven only to realize that God had something so much bigger for you. Even if God did alot through you, imagine if he wanted to do even more. What box have you put around yourself? What box have you put around God? One shot, One chance - If you aren't concerned with what God wants you to be - You are worthless. My pastor said something incredible this week. He told our church if you are a regular attender or a member here, and you are not doing anything, "YOU ARE DEAD WEIGHT." I was like YES. That is it. What are you doing with your life. If you are not dead - God still wants to use you. If you are dead, you aren't reading this blog. Death is coming - are you ready for God to show you what He wanted to do through you? Keep an awareness of death. Its healthy.